It is time for me to step away from my almost normal life & go back to being a cancer patient. (Do I sound bitter? I'm not.............well, I am not too bitter. I will be better in the morning. I promise.)
Because life is going to be hectic, I thought I would post my schedule here:
Tomorrow morning, November 2nd, at 8 am, my Pop heads in for surgery. I truly hate that I will not be there with my Gran and Pop. Pop has a special, special place in my heart, as most of you know. Knowing he is going through a big surgery, and I literally cannot be there, makes me sad and frustrated. If you could send some good juju his way, I know my family will be extremely grateful.
Two of my Molemates, Brandi & Becca, are also heading in for scans this week. These beautiful YOUNG ladies are true fighters. Please send prayers to them. They have both had such a rough year. They DESERVE good news.
11/2/2011: 9:00 I have my 3 month dermatologist appointment with Dr. Cool Guy. It has been a while since I have seen him since I had my last skin check at Sloan Kettering, so I know we will have a lot to catch up on.
12:45 I fly to Newark, NJ where I will meet my mom! (The best part about having to travel for treatment and scans.)
10:30 I meet with an Ophthalmologist at Memorial Sloan Kettering. Because Yervoy is known to cause inflammation of the eye, my oncologist, The Wizard, is following protocol.
11:30 I begin drinking my yummy (ha!) scan juice. My 3 month scans will follow consumption of that disgusting red juice.
1:45 FREEDOM! Mom & I plan to fully enjoy your afternoon and hopefully meet up with some fellow melanoma warriors.
9:00 I head back to Memorial Sloan Kettering Cancer Center to meet with The Wizard for blood work, check-up, and scan results. (Prayers please.)
11:00 Assuming my results are great, I will head for my next dose of treatment.
5 PM: Assuming all news is good news, I will celebrate with my Momma.
11/5/2011 I fly back home.
Phew. It is a big week for my family. Emotions are running high, patience is running thin. I have to believe that everything will be OK. I have to believe that.....But honestly, "I can't help but be scared of it all sometimes."
I'm saying goodnight to the Internet world. I need some cuddle time with my guy.
Write to you soon from NYC!