Overall, I am doing good! I am still having some tummy issues...a little cramping...and some headaches. I have managed to get through the last week without a single nap! Of course by the end of the day, I am exhausted, but I do manage to sleep through the night. (I mean, besides my 100 pee breaks...smallest bladder ever!)
My main complaint is about my left shoulder/side of my neck. The pain is steadily becoming worse. It is still swollen. It hurts to wear my seat belt, forget wearing a bra strap, and God help you if you touch me. Even in the shower, the water hitting the front of my collarbone is extremely uncomfortable! You know when something is not right? I know something is not right!
I am praying, hoping, and wishing it is simply a part of the healing process! I have had some major trauma to my body. But, I also feel uncertain because I have not had surgery on that side of my neck since January...Why is it bothering me so much now? Is it because of the "suspicious" area that they are doing the biopsy on Thursday? I am anxious to see The Wizard because the pain is becoming more extreme. I just hope my Wizard can solve my problems like Dorothy's Wizard solved hers...even if that does mean I have to have a huge needle stuck in the side of my neck on Thursday!
Thankfully, my Wizard is much more attractive than Ms. Dorothy's! What fun would it be if he wasn't adorable along with being very intelligent? I have to have something to make this experience more pleasant...
**Just a few minutes after posting this blog, one of my loyal blog readers Kate left me a comment that said: "It's funny that you mentioned your Wizard and the power he has to solve your problems and I have no doubt he possesses these powers, but keep in mind The Wizard of Oz is about self-sufficiency. The Scarecrow, Tin Woodman, and Lion all seek external magic to give them things they already possess but fail to recognize. Maybe it is the same with you. No doubt you need the Wizard's medical magic, but perhaps you have something inside that will ultimately heal you and bring you to the other side of this!! Just a thought. Think of yourself as powerful." Boy, she made me feel GOOD! She is so right! We need to have total faith in our medical staff that they will make the best decisions that will grant us long, healthy lives. But we also need to have total belief that we have some control over this disease as well. As we see repeatedly, attitude plays a huge part in conquering good health. I am going to put all of my energy into believing that no matter what the biopsy shows, I will tackle it. I will win. Thank you, thank you, THANK YOU, Kate!
**Just a few minutes after posting this blog, one of my loyal blog readers Kate left me a comment that said: "It's funny that you mentioned your Wizard and the power he has to solve your problems and I have no doubt he possesses these powers, but keep in mind The Wizard of Oz is about self-sufficiency. The Scarecrow, Tin Woodman, and Lion all seek external magic to give them things they already possess but fail to recognize. Maybe it is the same with you. No doubt you need the Wizard's medical magic, but perhaps you have something inside that will ultimately heal you and bring you to the other side of this!! Just a thought. Think of yourself as powerful." Boy, she made me feel GOOD! She is so right! We need to have total faith in our medical staff that they will make the best decisions that will grant us long, healthy lives. But we also need to have total belief that we have some control over this disease as well. As we see repeatedly, attitude plays a huge part in conquering good health. I am going to put all of my energy into believing that no matter what the biopsy shows, I will tackle it. I will win. Thank you, thank you, THANK YOU, Kate!
Off to the big City tomorrow! Special thanks to Miss Melanoma & the City, I am staying at her apartment tomorrow because the hotel rooms were absolutely ridiculous for tomorrow night. I am looking forward to seeing her & catching up! She has a big day tomorrow--scan day--so please say a little prayer for her. We are hoping for good news! God knows we need some this week...
BTW--melanoma has been mentioned every time I have watched the news over the last few days! PROGRESS! Check out a few great articles here:
2 comments:
I'll be thinking of you on Thursday and praying for nothing but wonderful results!! It's funny that you mentioned your Wizard and the power he has to solve your problems and I have no doubt he possesses these powers, but keep in mind The Wizard of Oz is about self-sufficiency. The Scarecrow, Tin Woodman, and Lion all seek external magic to give them things they already possess but fail to recognize. Maybe it is the same with you. No doubt you need the Wizard's medical magic, but perhaps you have something inside that will ultimately heal you and bring you to the other side of this!! Just a thought. Think of yourself as powerful. Sending encouragement your way.
Kate, I can't explain how much I LOVE the comment you just posted! I know I need to believe that my doctor has the ability to heal me because, let's face it, it's scary to think otherwise! But you are right, I need to kick my positive attitude into full gear & believe I can beat this!
Thank you, thank you, THANK YOU!
Sending you a HUGE hug.
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