I'm feeling a tad bit angry.
Pet peeve of the day: people who do not appreciate what they have.
I look at things differently...People who I thought were irresponsible before are now considered pathetic in my mind. You are too obsessed with your partying lifestyle to give your child a bath? Well, you are pretty much worthless in my opinion.
OK...where did this stem from?
My Melanoma friend, Melanoma & the City, had quite the interesting experience during a visit with her doctor. The little "mad scientist" doctor informed her that people with our lovely (ha!) cancer have a 50% chance of being alive in 5 years.
I, being the stubborn and determined person that I am, refuse to believe that.
I have met people through the online forums who have been without evidence of disease for many years. I know that there is a statistic for everything. I also know that statistics mean crap. You have to educate yourself, fight, and fight some more.
Here is why I became so angry...That "mad scientist" told my sweet friend that she will have at least a year of treatment, then she will need to wait 2 years to see if the cancer returns before she can THINK about having babies.
I am not saying that I am prepared to have babies in 3 years.
But I AM saying that I would have liked to have had that OPTION.
Now I can understand what couples dealing with infertility must feel like.
Just look on facebook, how many parents do you see actively NOT taking care of their children? Oh, they may make sure they don't KILL them, but what else do they do?
OKAY...I will admit--- I am evil. I am grumpy. And I am pissed off at life right this second. And I kind of hate the fact that I am jealous of these people... But my gosh, if you know me, you know how much I want babies. And more than that, I want to be HEALTHY to care for my babies.
If my biggest fault in life is getting sunburned, why in the hell do I have to deal with all of this?
OK. Rant over.