Tuesday, February 15, 2011

Mr. Spots Deserves a Reward...

...for giving me the best Valentine's day!
(And for all the little things that
I don't thank him enough for.)




What is that quote about being able to make a girl laugh?


Yesterday was a great day. And yes, as many of you notified me about, I did not post anything. I needed a break! I wanted to love on my boyfriend, feel pretty, and avoid anything Cancer related. 

(But I am glad to know I was missed!)

It has been very easy to become absorbed into the Cancer world. There is research. There are forums. There is a whole lot of "doom and gloom" available online if you take the time to look for it. The last month I have been hit over the head with bad news, been told amazing news, and essentially been on the roller coaster of my life. To have a romantic evening with my guy? It was needed. 

And appreciated.

It made me realize that life does get in the way sometimes. Priorities get out of wack. Petty issues get blown into big deals. Why? Probably because all of us are too tired to actually deal with the issue on hand.

I will never truly know how Mr. Spots is handling the news that his girlfriend has cancer. I mean, who expects that, right? On the outside he is strong, he is positive, and at times, he is the only thing holding me together. I can imagine the toll all of this is taking on him. Someone pointed out the other day that I should be relieved he hasn't disappeared. Truth is, he is not that type of guy. 

Through all of this, he has never made me feel like I am alone. When asked by various people about my condition, he never says "she." He says "we." I am pretty sure I have not even told him how that ONE word means so incredibly much to me. For a girl who likes to behave as though she can handle the world on her own, I cannot. And realizing that he is willing to take me on, cancer and all, has made me truly realize what a lucky girl I am.

Despite my very ugly scars, despite my very ugly rash, despite my new ability to cry while washing dishes, he loves me...he tells me I am beautiful...cancer and all.

And for that, I will always be grateful.


4 comments:

pop said...

YOU ARE A LUCKY GIRL. YOU HAVE A GUY THAT WILL STAY THROUGH THICK OR THIN. I TELL GRANNY ALL THE TIME HOW LUCKY SHE IS BUT I CAN'T REPEAT WHAT SHE SAYS, LOL. YOU AND GRANNY ARE BOTH WORTH IT.

LOVE YOU

POP

Chelsea said...

LOL...Granny knows she is lucky! :-)

Love you!!!!

almans said...

I am really liking Mr. Spots!! He sounds so wonderful. I am grateful for him too!

Kira.House said...

Cancer has never changed anyone for the bad. If it changes anyonje at all, it is always for the good. The heart grows more mature and that is beauty in itself.